From Where I Stand

Liz – Arizona, USA

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1) What does a typical day look like for you?

To answer this question honestly I need to go ahead and put it out there – I suffer from depression. So a typical day comes in two different forms for me. We have the first kind of typical day for me. That day is when I have, on purpose, filled my day up with different things to do to keep me busy. That day I might volunteer, babysit, clean house, visit teach, attend the temple session, visit with friends, do service, run errands or work out.  On that kind of day I am usually feeling on the top of the world and am ready to take on whatever comes my way. Then there’s the second form of typical day. On these particular days I wake up not seeing the sunshine and wishing I could sleep life away. I will usually fake having some kind of physical ailment whether it be a headache or sore arm or sore neck – ANYTHING, all just so I don’t need to get out of bed. My husband steps up when this happens. He’ll say “poor Hun” and then he’ll hustle our girls out of their beds and he’ll get them out the house and to school for the day. I usually manage to find my way out of bed and I will at least shower for the day, but then the thought of leaving the house will become paralyzing and so I will stay indoors and find the comfort of marathon runs of my favorite shows on HGTV. I have gotten better. The good days definitely outweigh the bad ones.

2) Tell us about something that has been essential in your personal conversion to Jesus Christ and His gospel.

Its weird to think that even though I have had the gospel in my life for as long as I can remember, that I wasn’t truly converted to Jesus Christ and to His gospel until four years ago. My eldest was in her freshman year of high school which also meant it was her first year of seminary. They were studying the Book of Mormon that year and were challenged to read the Book of Mormon during the summer before school started. I read the Book of Mormon to help my daughter along. I thought I was doing her a favor, but it turned out that I was doing myself one. I read the Book of Mormon and finished it with Moroni’s challenge. It was in that moment that I finally could see with clarity and everything clicked to me. I had always had a testimony of Our Heavenly Father and Our Savior Jesus Christ, but I think that it wasn’t until that moment that I realized I had been somewhat faking my testimony of the gospel. I found out that summer that the Book of Mormon was true. In discovering that there was a domino effect, if the Book of Mormon is true, then Joseph Smith really did see God the Father and his Son and he did help restore the Church into these latter days. There was no going back after that. At 36 years old, I had become converted.

3) How does the restored gospel affect your life on a daily basis?

It pulls me back to walking a straight line after going zig-zag and criss-cross. It’s what helps me to move after being struck with paralysis. It keeps me moving forward when all I want to do is turn around and move backwards. It keeps me honest. It keeps me hoping. It helps me endure. It helps me love stronger and harder. It affects everything that I do.

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